Good morning :)
I hope everyone is having a carefree, happy weekend!
I am so happy to have less of this..
And more of these..
Best. Purchase. All. Month.
I am just itching to tell you guys about all my weekend musings (there was a whole lot of food-makin'!), but I'll save that for tomorrow/Tuesday. I'm going to talk about something a little deeper than peanut butter and chocolate. ;)
As many of you know, I keep a ridiculous number of journals/notebooks. If you'd like to take a look into one of them, check out this post.
About two years ago, in my early-writing years, I put together a little spectrum in one of my notebooks. I was fed up with an unstable relationship with food and exercise and I wanted to find a happy medium. I thought to myself.. What does a happy medium with food even look like?
Being the visual person I am, I drew it out in front of me.
Here's my little "health spectrum":
If you can't read some of that, I apologize - age 15 is where my neat handwriting turned into a bit of a crazy scrawl (why waste time picking up your pen if you have to right??) - I've noticed that it actually looks a lot like my mother's too, which is weird. Is there a handwriting gene? Maybe I just admire her penmanship so much ;)
Basically at the top we have one "extreme"..
"This is where it's easy to be" - Not Caring At All
I wrote things like..
Exercise.. who cares? Doesn't matter if I'm hungry or not.. No body image at all... Loving no control... Doesn't matter what I eat... Doesn't matter how much... Relieves my tension... It just tastes good... Why eat fruits and veggies?? Unhealthy dinners like cookies or ice cream...
This is an easy, but hard spot to be in. It's a spot where I feel a lot of people leave themselves..
I must add though, if it works for them, and they don't have a issue with those things I listed above, no problem! That's great! I'm not here to judge everyone and their habits.
I just know that for me, this is a yucky spot to be in, because it leaves me feeling stressed, lethargic, and just plain crappy. (Again, that's me, someone else may be completely different).
On the bottom, we take a 180 to the other extreme..
Again, I wrote "This is where it's easy to be" - Caring Way Too Much
I say this because for me, it's easy to find myself in a control-cycle. It is, by no means, easy on my mental health, but I find that I am able to get wrapped up in it without much trouble.
This extreme includes things like..
Sacrificing fun occasions so I don't have to eat... Loving control... No high calorie foods. Period... CALORIES- burned, eaten, allowed to burn... negative body image... Burn it off later... Restricting... Doesn't matter if I'm hungry or not... I HAVE to exercise... Doesn't matter how good it is for my body, as long as it's low-cal...
Much like the other end, this a hard place to be. I can honestly say that all of these thoughts have crossed my mind before, and not a single one of them makes me feel uplifted or truly happy. I'm sure I am not alone in this either.. These thoughts are associated with control, obsession and insecurity -these thoughts suck.
But luckily, there is a happy spot in between all the craziness. This spot is like a breath of fresh air, a sigh of relief. It's hard to find this spot sometimes, but this spot feels "just right".
Eating til ful, eating when hungry. Treats here and there. Foods that give me ENERGY.. energy to exercise. And exercising because it's good for me. Fruits, vegetables, healthy snacks. Not worrying about the calories but eating how much I'm hungry for. Good body image. Loving myself. Exercise gives me energy. Moving my body enjoyably.
This is a wonderful place to be. For some of us, it takes work every single day, but the payoff is so awesome!
Life has ups and downs, and we may visit the extremes every once in awhile in times of stress. That's okay. I know where I want to be, and I know what that happy medium looks like. That is what is important in the whole scheme of things.
Here's to a happy, balanced day for everyone.